Monday, July 26, 2010

What if Syndrome

"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
My favorite Aunt joined the wave of half million other Facebook fans last week. Her recent photos provided me the opportunity to longingly look at pictures of my family I have not seen in years. Cousins that have not grown up before my very eyes, but are so grown up I can't believe my eyes.
Living on the opposite side of the country was as close as I wanted to be back then. Family to employment slowly filters through my what if syndrome these days. What if I had not decided to 'see' the West Coast, and remained in my home town... or not leave my adorable cottage in San Francisco in order to buy a house in the country. Regret and happiness are like oil and water.
I can miss my family but just for today I will embrace the fact that I live in paradise here, the community, the events and even the weather I occasionally blog about.
Life is good.


Leah Fry said...

Oh, make it for more than just today. You live in a beautiful place in close proximity to someone that, for all appearances ADORES you. Life is indeed good, my friend.

Ruth said...

Facebook is so good for connecting with family.

Anonymous said...

Yeah, Rose, that "What if" mood often attacks me too. What if I had had a big project going on when my friend called me to come work in Stockholm and I was unable to come. She would have found someone else and my life would be very different. At this point of my life I often wonder about the road not taken even though this road has been a good one.

Ruth said...

Came back to say I watched The Diving Bell and the Butterfly today. Wow. I was so touched. Amazing visuals and film making, and acting. And what a man to begin with. When he said, I decided to stop pitying myself, I realized I would never view any suffering of my own the same, ever again. (I wonder how long I'll remember that.)